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I couldnt contain myself any longer! I HAD to make a NEW lj! So if you want the link, let me know via comment... and dont worry, I know that Im a guilty pleasure for some of you, so all comments left will be screened so that only the commenter (what?) and myself may see them =)
i miss your entries too!!!!
loveloveLoVE!
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[12 Aug 2006|01:36pm] |
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I suppose once a whore, always a whore. Ive decided that live journal is so overrated, and it was a lot more fun when i could just record my memories and not have to worry about who might read them.
Sara, be glad if you never fall in love with Jon, because really all you end up with is hurt. Granted he can be a great person most of the time, but once it becomes intimate and all the emotions really flow, its hard to get back to where you started from. And in response to your little message, it didnt bother me that he was "just friends" with you. But I would think that being how hurt you were when david slept with multiple girls, and made out with several guys, that you would have some sort of guilt in you, making you realize that not what you were doing was wrong, but that you were doing it with the wrong intentions. Jon swears he never cheated on me with you, and all i can do is believe him. Good luck in school, and you too take care of yourself.
Kim, what can i say.. we're very similar in attitude and with the giving of our love. I honestly have no resentment toward you at all. And you truly are a very stong human being. As odd as our conversations were, they helped me out a lot. And I thank you so much for being honest with me, and not coming at me with anger or throwing things in my face that would potentionally hurt me. You too are truly a great girl, and I hope that things go well for you. And after all this is said and done, we'll always have sometime. take it easy homie.
Oh you live journal, its been 5 years of nonsense. But I suppose it really is time to be more grown up and not have to record my thoughts anymore.
Im over it, and Im over you. do what you think benefits you, continue to write in your journal as if you think i read it, and maybe that will make you feel better about yourself. Im really done reading these journals, and i hope that you grow up to be better than what you are now. Truly youre only 18, and there is so much more in life youve yet to see.
LoVE!
"To hell with you and all your friends!"
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[09 Aug 2006|07:37pm] |
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OH yes! Work is over for a week! SO excited! I feel like I havent seen these bitches (my roommates) in forever! Theyre a bunch of drunk whores most of the time, so I dont get to hangout cause I have to go to sleep... but tonight, oh yes, its on!
So I wanted to hangout with Jon tonight, being that I dont have to get up at the crack of dawn tomorrow, however, he's supposed to be hanging out with Justin tonight. The Virgin comes home from CT today. He's yet to tell her we're back together. Let me find out that he hungout with her tonight instead of me, and oh my... you dont even want to know. Unless he hungout with her and told her about us, then Im whatever. But if he manages to see her, and not tell her, Ill be ultra heated.
According to her she doesnt care if things dont pan out for her the way she'd like them to... So im under the assumption that she has a clue. If she doesnt have a clue, someone should clue her in. Id think by this point in time, everyone else had read my journal, I dont believe that she hasnt too. And if she has, then she knows very well whats in store for her.
Its bad timing, but really I have no control over that.
So Im thinking im about to go out to dinner with b-rian. But Not sure yet.
I have this outrageous urge to fuck, like no other. like really, no other.
Tomorrow night, BROCKS!!!! whats up 50 cent drafts. And well drinks too! From our calculations we can get smashed on just six dollars. I may just dance. Im going to try to refrain, but theres always these random guys trying to dance with me when I go there.
brobrwnrdjsnuwiegr ewhruiqwndsakmdsamddopwjdojd
So the anniversary is coming up. I have lots of plans. And Im actually excited about it.
ok.
LoVE!
"Do I look like a slut?"
"uh huh"
"shut up"
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[07 Aug 2006|10:14pm] |
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I hate being on my work week. I can barely do anything, cause im lame and need like a million hours of sleep!
whatever, i only have 2 days left.
Really i have nothing interesting to offer you, journal. Well I do, but Im trying to be one of those 'i dont kiss and tell' kind of people. However it never really works out too well for me... because then well it just makes me feel boring.
I was thinking about boyfriends tonight and how ive always accomplished what Ive wanted to with the more important ones. Silly things, yet things that meant the world to me.
With Rick all I ever wanted to do was to spend the night together every saturday, and wake up on sundays and listen to breakfast with the beatles while i cooked us breakfast.. And we did that, and it was great.
With Justin all I ever wanted to do was everything unpredictable, and we did. And some things were crazier than others... one of my favorites was walking around downtown together, with my hand in his pocket, i loved that kid, he was great.
Then theres Jon. We have done so many outrageous and random, and normal things. And truly theres only 2 things that I really want out of our relationship. Neither have yet to come, yet im still amazed at everyday we have together. And honest to God I never thought things would turn out this way for us. Nor did I think that we would come this far. We were both just rebounds for each other, or so we thought. Who knew our worst breaks ups ever with our former significant others would have lead us to each other.
Im lucky to have met you in front of the nose.
loveloveloveloveloveLoVE!
"This could be interesting...."
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[06 Aug 2006|09:50pm] |
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Im seriously like the nosiest bitch alive... or so it seems. Has anyone read the virgin's livejournal today/last night? I just did... whats the deal here, her 'significant other' that she doesnt have to worry about at home??? Riggggght. If she honestly thinks that her "'he'"..... im not even going to finish that thought.
She definitely needs to wise up. However having her grandfather just die, it makes it understandable to not want to tell someone that youre not really theirs. Even if they do have this huge crush on you... I agreed not to say anything. But this doesnt mean that I wont keep my eyes open.
This weekend was pretty good. Sober Sunday was better than ever. I actually left the house instead of laying around all day. But Im so beat.
ok yeah. bug me.
LoVE!
"Its like saying cheese sandwich."
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[06 Aug 2006|03:10pm] |
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Its official....
Im part of a unit again!
this weekend made me, it didnt break me.
LoVE!
"hey baby baby boy loved you from the day that we met!"
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[04 Aug 2006|09:15pm] |
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I decided, really, whats a 'friends only' journal for anyway. All im doing is protecting OTHER peoples' feelings by having one...
Lets see, whats new...
Moved into the townhouse
LOTS of sex has been had
Waking up ultra early for work blows
Ive put my foot down, this weekend will make or break me
dramadramadrama with the girls
A virgin has fallen, and thinks itll last
There has been a lot of vomitting
Plans to relocate, ALREADY
kim. conversing. thinking. laughing. hating cum guzzlers.
i sat on top until it was done.
Short and breezy.
LoVE!
"In the baaaathrooom is where I waaaant yooooou... and just to see your boddddy in a plaaaace sooo tackyyyyyy"
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[31 Jul 2006|09:04pm] |
>>Monday, July 31
Aries:
Forgive them, for they know not what they do, and if by the way you suspect that
actually they do know what they do, you should still do your utmost (read:
exercise great discipline and restraint) to refrain from mentioning it. Why
should you? Well, Saturn harassing unpredictable Uranus isn't exactly causing
people to respond reasonably or rationally.
Today's star rating: ****
Star Guide:
* Yikes ** Negotiable *** Good **** Really Good ***** Stellar
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[30 Jul 2006|05:53pm] |
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So whats so stupid is that Im so emotional. Sometimes its not so bad, but I think after so many years of being apathetic, its just all caught up to me now, and with every year I grow more and more emotional.
So yesterday was moving day, and we moved pretty much everything into the new townhouse, and had a big moving day party, and then partied it up at night too. However, I think I got drunk way too fast, and ended up going to bed first.
We called it quits at about 4:00PM and then what was so exciting was that Justin and Jon came over at like 4:30 when they werent even supposed to come over til like 8:00 for the party. We took naps and stuff, it was kinda funny. It was just so freakin' hot out though, and I had a killer headache for like 6 hours, no joke.
So the guys got along with all the other guys, which was really quite shocking. Especially since they never like any of my guy friends. So the girls were pleased to know that all of them were able to get along so that we could hangout more often.
we spent over 200 moneys on alcohol, and that was just between 6 of us, I dont even know what else everyone else had. And I ended up passing out on my bed, and then waking up who knows how long later, and going downstairs, and hanging out with jon, and then i had the urge to vomit, so I had to run upstairs, and when i throw up, i cry, its automatic, so I was crying in the bathroom while puking, and then wondering why jon wasnt in there to hold my hair, so then the gays found me, and mallory and katie did too, and so they went and found him so he could take care of me. And then we went to bed.
That was more than interesting.
Im not gonna lie, Ive already cried today. I think its just the build up of everything that I have going on, and then one thing sets it all off. I just cried for like a minute, but still, tears were shed.
Funniest thing ever!!!! Justin got wasted, and fell off our deck, and got stuck in between stairs and the deck, and landed on the fence. And no one was even outside to witness any of it. Not to mention he somehow ended up hanging out with our neighbors, and going through a cornfield, who does that??? Apparently looking for mushrooms??? Yeah. I dont know. He said for a second there he thought he was getting jumped, and then he thought he was lost, who knows how he made it back... Its always an adventure with that kid.
I dont really remember too much about last night, just key things. And things I sobered up for... and just random stuff.
That wasnt even our house warming party, but one of those should be happening shortly.
I need to chill out man. I start back at work on thursday. lame.
whats so cool?! I get perfect service in my bedroom... i really like being on the third floor. And it works out great how the common area like living/dining room and kitched are on the second floor, and the girls' rooms are on the first floor. So its not a pain in the ass to get to the livingroom... just out the front door.. oh well, 2 flights of stairs = some tiny bit of excercise.
so, diggin that archie star? me too.
iloveloveloveyouandcantwaittogrowup!
LoVE!
"It was so sad! you were balling your eyes out!"
"I know, i cant help it, throwing up sucks!"
"You called me a slut like 80 times last night...."
"Well you did, you know....."
"yeah, well you love it!"
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[27 Jul 2006|11:39am] |
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Last night was fun...
keg = great time.
LoVE!
"Tell jon we will each give him 5 dollars! thats 20 dollars! Ill even give him 10!"
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[26 Jul 2006|04:11pm] |
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So today has been different.
The girls and I packed up nearly the entire apartment, we're moving this saturday, and we're uber excited!!!! However, the whole packing thing brought nearly all of us to tears. They were all getting ready to cry talking about how horrible they felt since we were moving out, and then katie looked at me and said, "I cant even imagine how you feel..." And then thats what made me feel worse.
Forget the having to pack jons things along with my own, but how about the finding random 'i love you' cards, and happy anniversary, and happy valentines day, and happy birthday, and just random notes we'd write each other. It broke my heart. And today I took down the last picture of us that was hanging in the living room. Id taken down all the others a few months ago, but always left this certain one hanging, and no one ever really noticed it, but Id look at it everyday. Well it came down today. And then this tiny little bear he gave me that sat on the TV, i grabbed that and put it in a tiny envelope in a box, and I wanted to cry, and even just writing this makes me want to cry.
But at the same time while Im being so sad and sentimental while finding/packing these things, I think to myself that things arent over so really I shouldnt be so sad, because theres more 'i love you' notes to come, and more cards, and more anniversaries, and really its all just going to be fine. I just have to get through this little bit of time, reminding myself that its fine, we're fine.
We're having a party for our friend Mary today, and everyone is so hyped and Im just not in the mood. Lately I havent been drinking so much, and everyones asking me whats wrong, and really nothing is "wrong." I suppose I just dont feel like it. Last night Ryan and I hung out and I had like 3 beers and played a board game, which was fun, but I wasnt looking to get drunk. Theres just something in me thats not up for it right now.
Mallory asked why Im being such a mom, and I had no answer.
How is it so possible to miss someone that you talk to every single day of your life? I suppose its just touch and scent and looks of it all.
Today I was folding laundry, and I found some of his shirts, and Im lame, I smelled them, and they smelled like him, and I even found socks and things. Its all just making me so sad.
Then I have to remind myself again!
I really feel like a wreck today. My thoughts arent even in order as I type this.
Im sure there will be more.
And for the record: Still not girlfriend status. just courting. =)
LoVE!
"Let me love you baby, just let me looooove yooooooou..."
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[23 Jul 2006|06:22pm] |
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Nothing beats an AM orgasm.
LoVE!
"Do you want to come over and kill some time?"
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[22 Jul 2006|12:43pm] |
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Its almost sunday, and I can hardly wait. I love you boo!
hah.
LoVE!
"I chose atomic bomb...."
"Really? Rachel I thought of you more as poison..."
"Really? I think atomic bomb."
"Yeah definitely atomic bomb, cause when you get pissed, you fuck people's shit up.."
"yeah... I kinda do."
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[20 Jul 2006|07:38pm] |
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This song really is the story of my life....
Tonight, I say we just get out of this town
Lets go to Seattle, watch rain fall to the ground
And on our tongues "I love you's" run into each other
But could I really trust her? She said,
"Hey baby baby boy, why you always look so sad?
You got the whole world in the palm of your hand."
But it don't mean a thing if you're not next to me.
I'm so sick, so sick of just always dreaming.
I'm sleeping on the couch, she's married to her mattress.
I think the hardest times are finally gonna pass us.
The glass half full, so watch my eyes
Oh babe I promise that I'll never let what happen last time...
The rain is coming down like, Oh cats and dogs
It's harder to see you, see through all the fog.
I know you're there so I'm not scared
"Hey! Lets get crazy, how bout' we just get married," she said.
"Hey baby, baby boy I've loved you from the day that we met,
don't care what mom says or if we're ready just yet,
Cause this don't mean a thing if you're not next to me.
You're who I want to wake up to every morning."
I'm sleeping on the couch, she's married to her mattress
I think the hardest times are finally gonna pass us
The glass half full, so watch my eyes
Oh babe I promise that I'll never let what happen last time...
Lets Just Get Married
Lets Just Get Married
Wait.
I'm on one knee,
Can you believe this is happening?
So kiss the clock,
Just for luck.
What timing, 11:11 just struck
I'm sleeping on the couch, she's married to her mattress
I think the hardest times are finally gonna pass us
The glass half full, so watch my eyes
Oh babe I promise that I'll never let what happen last time...
Oh baby, Yeah I'll marry you.
Lets Get Married... Listen to it =)
So you know what else is back? This guy Today is the 2nd time that Ive worn it in nearly 3 months. And really I missed it, I would touch my finger to feel if it was there, and it wouldnt be, and then Id remember why. It sucked really, but Im so happy to be able to wear it again. Everyone has noticed and asked me a million questions. Its really the nicest BEST diamond ring ever! Everyone loves it, and so do i =)
I feel so gay to be so excited.
ok enough with the gayness.
LoVE!
p.s. those are our we love sushi faces.
LoVE!
"Its our first date date!"
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[20 Jul 2006|12:10pm] |
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So I went to work today, and looked at the calendar.... I totally forgot that I have paid vacation this month! And that I took it next week! So All I have to work is today, tomorrow, and saturday, and then Im off for 2 weeks!!!!! Oh so fun!
I think Ima try to have a sleepover on sunnnnnnnnnnnday. Or saaaaaaaaaaturday. But probably more likely sunday. Not sure yet, Ill figure it out though.
On another note, its pretty interesting to see who's been reading my journal lately. Talk about krazy... i knew it was happening, but really I didnt think it was THAT often. Every two hours sometimes.. whatever.
Ew what sucks is that this month we were supposed to move to NC. Its kind of a bummer, but we'll survive.
loveloveLoVE!
"Hey mom..."
"You just called me, not your mom, stupid."
"So mom...."
"Oh youre lying to someone and pretending im your mom, ok.."
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Im not gonna lie, Im on like cloud 5. Not 9, but definitely 5. Phone calls today which Id been longing for, for so long, and its just the best when someone tells you they love you, before you have a chance to tell them first.
So this week's PostSecrets are pretty good... I was going to post my favorite one on here, but then just didnt. Youll have to go look at them for yourselves. Its the first one on the page. But look before sunday, cause sunday will be new ones.
Im in love with them. I received the post secrets book for valentines day, it was uber exciting, i read the whole thing in one sitting. Of course, its not like its a lot to read, but it kinda is.
Today Sarah, and Mallory and I went to the pool to lay out and go swimming. I think I have heat stroke. Im an idiot.
Tonight we're going out to dinner, and of course Im the 5th wheel. The girls dont want it to seem like a double date, so I have to come, so that it looks like we're all just a bunch of friends, but REALLY, it is a double date, they just dont like to think of it that way. Too bad I cant bring a fella, it would be so much more fun if I could.
The girls really want jon to like their boyfriends, its kinda funny. They like him, so they think its only fair that the guys are okay with each other, so we can all hangout and have a good time. I agree I guess.
I need to bathe, im so chlorinated.
So I shouldnt physically explode for a while, I released a lot of tension yesterday, twice even. I slept pretty well =)
We went to this party, and I didnt even hangout with my friends, and I didnt even realize we were leaving until they found me and said it was time to go, it was pretty funny. Mallory was wasted, katie drove, I was just having a good time. We came home and had a picnic of chicken fingers on the floor, it was really funny... i love these girls.
ok.
LoVE!
"Why did you go to the pool????"
"To lay out."
"Were there boys there?!?!?!??!?!"
"Yeah, a lifeguard, and then some others showed up, and we left..."
"Mmmmhmmmm.."
haha. its back.
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[18 Jul 2006|09:05pm] |
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So I believe Im being courted now. Not a girlfriend yet, but courted. We're going to go on dates, and have fun, and share our friends with each other and just see how things go. If they continue to go well, then we'll discuss the getting together thing.
Im excited. Like woah.
I think everything is somewhat starting to fall into place. Him and his friends may stop by on saturday for Mary's going away party... but most likely not. But then sunday we're seeing each other!!!! Maybe going to va beach, which I so have been planning to do.
Its funny to have a conversation where its like, "Ok heres the deal, we'll go out, go to dinner, go on dates, and then a little bit after, we'll get together..." Its like really, who does that???
Oh well.
I think im exclusive now.
hmmm.
LoVE!
"Im gonna touch your butt! Youre not wearing any underwear!"
"Yes I am!!!"
"Where?!"
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[17 Jul 2006|05:28pm] |
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SO! We havent had sex since thursday! Im about to die! I so need it more than this.. and you know it. Get with the program!
Im on my way up north in like an hour, Im so lazy, I dont want to go, but a promise is a promise!
LoVE!
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[16 Jul 2006|06:46pm] |
NOthing like a great dinner
good music
funny conversation
cuddling
hot sex
richmond
and well beer.
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